This year October is a tiring, sad n painful one.....it was positive...im pregnant!!no wonder been craving for these n that non stop!!!Initially me n hubby were shocked as we never planned to have bb anymore...mcm mana aftr almost a year bole sangkut?????

On the othr hand we r very excited for hadiff to turn one on the 5/10/2011....instead of us giving him present....this little boy gv us one unexpected 1 year old present.....flu....lepas tu deman panas wit his temp up n down n plus his ragam....gosh!!tis is the first tym he sakit teruk!!! juz imagine he tak kasi i sit dwn must berdiri dukung dia....haishhhhh. To add to all these tiredness,

I found myself bleedind endlessly like im having period!!hubby dh start worried so am I cos my past pregnancies i nvr bleed...make a appointmnt to see dktr tapi got to cncel as Hadiff was still with high fever so I change to nxt week.

Mon-10/10/10...went to thomson medical ctr....dktr scan...no fetus, im shocked plus worried...dkr said partial miscarriage....apalag i kuar bilik with tears...so did hubby....no choice dktr said still got to wash...haish....

put sadness aside...hadiff lak dwn with ear infection...haish btol nye bdae present he gv us!!!dah la tu to add more...dktr kol saying dat the tissue he said to lab doesnt belong to bb...i need to cum dwn for blood test.......worry mode on balek...hubby sampai tkleh concentrate keje....result blood test indicate im still pregnnt,bb still growing...n its ectopic!!!

I sink into despression mode immediately....to make story short, went to kkh on 21/10/10...warded n tey do emergency operation on me cos afraid dat my tube will rupture.

soooooooo painful.......beranak tak sakit mcm ni!!! I sampai dh phobia amek darah...apakn tdak,

kejap2 amek darah...sampai darah pon tk kuar,n dorang cucuk tmpt lain...by time i discharge...left n right hands full of plaster!!!

really a terrible phobia october...thnxs hubby for being there helping me out ...n my 3 eldest children...luv u all....nw all aside...waiting for december...n we r gg to terengganu!!!