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Wednesday, December 15, 2010

title:{my birth}

let me recalled...it was 3rd of october...where i received my long awaited guests...and the 5 of tem tak sabar nk jmp this special aftr a long long time.....and it was last minute thing but lucky i still got the energy(back then i was sarat d) to prepare them sumting....

the day ended well...children r happy...hubby was not ard dat time and worse i was having bad contraction dat i cant even walked!!!panicked mode....i started to time each pain...n the kelakar part...i pakai baju yg senonoh in case i need to dashed n tahan taxi since hubby is working dat night....tahan2 sakit sampai tertdo....wake up...hubby dh balik lying beside me...i rmbr telling him.."i was having bad contraction n sakit dia sekejap2'..hubby replied...hmm reali...ntah2 esok (4th oct my check up) u kene tahan tak?....i pon dozed off to sleep n was telling myself...fuh false alarm;)

my check up was @ 3.30pm...hubby sent me there then he off to werk....i rmrbr him asking me"nk lunch since its still early?" while i said,tknk uh...tak lapar...he drop me...feeling frustated i guess cos he never kiss me lyk usual...but i sempat told him if pape i tex/kol u...he drove off.
while waiting @ clinic c...the pain is back again...n i go...oh..no...mati la aku....then it my turn....true enuf...i was having contraction...n was 4cm dilated...doctor told me to be admitted...wahsey my heart was racing so fast...cos im scared nk beranak!!!!keluar je frm bilik dktr i immediately kol hubby..."dear i kene tahan...dh 4cm...he replied...huh?ok2 nnti i dtg...frm the background i knw he tgh ada briefing n the time show...few minute to 5pm.

they wheeled me to admission counter n the best part...i did the admission myself as hubby still not here...omg....the CSO was kanchiong...she takot if i terberanak...while i still cn laughed at her cos dat time her computer asyik 'hang'...making the admission so slow...and the thing the make me so happy...can use medisave to pay the hospital bill!!!yay!!!hubby medisave is enough to cover my bill!!!relieved!!!!oh ya dlm i lagi kecoh nk admit,my maid kol...telling me'bu sofa dh dtg tapi kaler nye salah...'i go huh?biar btol...nnti saya kol bapak...kecoh sungguhla beb...

630pm finally hubby arrived....n was put on ctg...still not in the mood to eat....the only i had was breakfast....n was determined not to eat till i delivered!!!tunggu punya tunggu still no show...hubby went home...but come back again ard 1130pm to passed my handy dandy bag...he told me he is gg to his werkplace to appy leave...tis tym ard before he left there is hug n kisses...so sweet....while me...dh risau...cos i knw my body...kalu tk induced makne nye tk beranak la aku...but im still wit the pain...nk berak pon takot until 4am......i decided to tell tem dat i feel lyk passing motion n having contraction...padahal still can tahan the pain juz dat i want it to be fast!

was wheeled dwn....n fuh...labor ward was full on dat day...alamak...mati la aku....tey pon me in a small room with ctg again....tis tym ard the pain is so consistent...n i kip baca doa nabi yunus again n again....n manage to doze off....

it was 7am... a nurse asked me...u want to go to labor room...off course i want!!!n kol hubby...told him to come quick...dgn pantas he replied oh ok!by 8 am i was in the sweet gown....white kaler...n looking at the whole room telling myself...here i am again...aftr so many years...n im scared!!!the ward dktr came ard...815am to break my waterbag...n telling myself..this is it ayu!!!
nurse came rite aftr to put my drip...i rmrbr biting my thumb cos nk tahan being cucuk....oh ya...my midwife joey is so sweet...put me on ctg and even shake my tummy asking baby to wake up n come out to see the world...*cant believe bb was asleep while im in labor!!

haiz...dh 845am and hubby still not here yet...im scared if i dh on gas sure can talk...cos the gas will cause drosiness...5 min ltr hubby arrived i was so relieved...n he goes...sorry im late...traffic jam la...trying to explained himself but i quickly put my gas on cos...the contration is stronger....there goes...i was in a dazed...the last word i ingat my hubby asking...tey break ur waterbag...ada darah ni..

ok....i swear tis tym ard...givung birth was so so so so so painful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i was having the mask on...trying to breathe correctly...gripping the blanket so hard...holding hubby hand real tight...but 1 thing im sure all woman will fil this is the time where u will see how worried n caring n concern ur hubby is....n im glad n funny part i sempat said tis inside my heart...syg jgk u kat i...hehhe hubby was guiding me thru out the process...till its time to push....by 3 pushes baby is out....and i was in drowsy state with bb on my chest...hubby kip calling helo darling...while to my relieve midwife said...good no tear!!!while all i do was closed my eyes.....and was thankful dat semua selamat...hadiff was born @ 954am....labor for an hour...fuh!

aftr dat...i turned to hubby...i lapar...hehe...so sweet of hubby went out to get my fav chix rice...
been 2 mths plus...NOR HADIFF as we planned to name our bb...meaning cahaya yg mempunya matlamat....he is the joy of the family....

as for hubby...thnxs alot...i luv u...im glad nothing changed even hadiff is here...we still snuggle...hug... endless kisses...go on date...(wit hadiff)...im thankful for everything...n tis little bb is being pamper by us...

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